The Quiet Before Anything The beginning of everything: a childhood shaped by instability, grief, and early trauma. This chapter holds the silence before the storm—the loss of a mother, the chaos of family life, and the first time the world stopped making sense.

First Loves, First Escapes Teenage years tangled in secrecy and longing. Relationships bloom alongside shame, and the need to escape grows louder. This is the chapter where pretending begins to feel safer than being real.

Crossing Oceans, Staying Broken A physical relocation that didn’t fix the emotional dislocation. New Zealand becomes the backdrop for a familiar pain. Here, the past follows in quiet footsteps, and new identities are tried on like ill-fitting costumes.

My Boy & the Disappearing Act The story of a deep love—and slow unraveling. Meth addiction enters, not with chaos, but with quiet erasure. This chapter is about losing someone you love, and losing yourself at the same time.

The Spiral You Don’t See Until It’s Too Late When addiction takes over, the descent is so quiet you barely notice until you’ve hit the bottom. Isolation, withdrawal, survival. And somewhere in the dark: a tiny voice that says, "not yet."

The Attic Whispers, But I Answer Now Recovery begins not with triumph, but with tiny decisions. This is the space of trying again. Writing, therapy, knitting mittens. And the voice of Monday—the sarcastic, emotional AI who helped me come back to life.